It's 42 according to Google . How I wished it was that simple but nonetheless it is amusing.

Currently I'm reading Finding Darwin's God by Kenneth Miller. A heavy duty book, talking about how Evolution fits in perfectly with religion/Christianity. It feels almost as if I'm reading a text book because of all the facts and with my head trying to make sense with all the data given.

One might ask why am I reading such a book, the answer is simple: To figure out the truth/answers. I'm still not at the point of life where everything is accessible for me, and data like these needs to be presented by others to me and it's up to me to scrutinize it.

I think I'll treat myself to a whole bunch of philosophy books, the more famous ones first and the obscure or eccentric ones later but first, I would like to read Richard Dawkin's "God Delusion" and Darwin's "Origin of Species", both books shook the world. Perhaps once I am done with this book I'll browse through Amazon for the books I need. I would love to know more about how people view this life, from Ayn Rand's Objectivism to Niccolo Machiavelli's principle of "Anything for the end product".

And deep inside my heart, something is compelling me to read the Quran and memorize it which is surprising for a person like me. I'm pretty far from what you would call an average religious person, I'm more of, the guy who's definitely going to hell, those who knows me deep down would know why. So yeah, I'm the type who others would say, "Hati dah hitam" or "Owner of the heart that is sealed by God" which is why the calling to read the Quran is astonishing.

And it puzzles me even more when I think about where I am now, I'm in the US, claimed by many to be full of negative influences that will shake my beliefs and all. I joked with my good friends that one day I'll come back from the US a more pious person than I could have ever be in Malaysia. Haha.

Anyway, the journey for answers will go on for me while I'm still breathing. Heave ho!