This post is going to be full of negative vibes, I advise you to ignore it.

Just ramblings of my heart because random thoughts of patheticness have been bombarding my head, and these are some

Time doesn't heal, it preserves your sanity.
Time doesn't heal, it lets you dig a hole big enough to keep everything in
Why cry over losing something you never had in the first place?
I'm an idiot, a fool.
Why can't my heart be still?
I need to look for pieces of me
I want to leave the things that's draining me
I don't want to think of this
Will I always end up like this?
I'm pathetic.
Suka dalam duka
When can I stop pretending to smile?
I never knew a smile can hurt so much
Funny how something that can make people so happy can break a person into pieces
I want to forget this
I feel like writing a song and name it "The Sweetest Mistake"
I should be happy for the things that happened
I'm fighting a battle with myself, to not let all these negative feelings get the best of me
I want to be myself again
I'm stupid
Why does my mind keep drifting to the same spot?
I really thought I was stronger
I'm actually a weak fool
A sore loser too
I just want to go back, can I go back now?
Can I take off this armor and show my weaknesses for once?
Why am I like this? I shouldn't be
I don't know why it hurts, it shouldn't have hurt
Because nothing ever transpired anyway
So why agonize over something that was never there
Be strong, stop thinking of this
Focus
I'm tired of living, can I just be like the wind or the stars for once?
This is tiring
Funny how it doesn't take much to spoil your day
I hope I have spare-parts of me back home
I'm pathetic
I'm weak
I like to whine
I'm a fool
I like to douse myself with sadness
I should stop this
Sometimes I feel like a paralyzed guy who's trying really hard to learn how to walk again